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Tuesday, March 31
FUCKZZZZZ

Today is fucking in a mess day. I got pretty Damn-ed up badly. Damn him lah....I really do not know what to do anymore. Nobody now trusts me....I'm seriously out of the blues blogging out of no reason. He just ask me diam then all the fuck and chee bye words coming out his mouth. Clement was like shouting then i shouted him back. I really do not know what is going on. Hey peeps, you may see the happy side of me today in class or anywhere else. But, i'm internally damaged.; I may look like counselling you but i am badly hurt too. I dunno what medicine i ate to flare up and cry today. i really do not what is going on in me. But, i'm trying my best to be pesismictic(wadeva this is spelled) but .... Nvm... I flared at jun wei who scolded me the chain then i shouted kpkb all the words out at him. Clement was like shouting at us to stop. I cried after being internally stabbed. I feel so pain in my heart, i just couldn't help it. Then, flared up the second time at my top voice. What in the world do they want from me? So kaypo for wad? Who i like also must ask until like secret message like that. Edmund even went to search for my blog. DAMN....I screamed at my top voice saying " CB LAR, TELL YOU ALL DUN SEARCH, YOU STILL SEARCH. WHAT YOU ALL WANT WITH ME" I ran off after that.....i Feel so internally damaged......but care for wad? Im dead in my family......

Update 2:
It's not like i dun want to let anybody know my blog but after being bitten one time, i learnt not to trust anyone with my blog anymore. Except trusted people, Many people across my life has never allowed me to trust them.....I hope you all understand why i turned aggresive when untrusted people enters my blog.....Sorry if i show too agrrgresive, but i really do not wish to trust anyone after bitten badly once......


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 15:44;

Monday, March 30
Dunnoe how to describe lerz

ErrHem...Listen...yoohoo!! Kay...2 Weeks and 3 Days have passed. Okay, i'm still continue to wait. Always look on the bright side of life~! Today was a complete tiring and boredom day. A-Maths, piangz can go bang on the wall. The new NIE training woman is like complete boredom. Prefer Mrs Tan teaching and her screaming xD. Then Fizziks, Teacher never come. PE, 2.4 km came at 21 min 37 sec. at least i won boon kiat...wooo....my biggest achievement.Then all the conditioning craps. Was like trying so hard anyway i survived one week of conditioning. Then English was a free period, begged shawn for sweets..haha. Anyway after school, skipped my lunch. Help set up the finanacial thingy. Piangzzzzz E-Maths was a complete waste of my time. Time is precious it is equals to money very expensive to lose. Skipped Geog SSP, was like no mood, not feeling well. Headaches is killing me. Rested in innospace, was like wah heaven. haha xD. This morning argued with my bro. He is like so ****-ed. Think i sleeping never hear anything. He still say "tmr go kp him" I was like what the fuck...FUCK OFF WILL YA, ask me pay you, over my dead body will i pay him. Mindless Maggots. This family is CREATING MORE TROUBLE for me. Father douhbt me, Mother ask me do housework like crazy. Bro Fight with me like no heaven and hell and SIS still okay lah, at least he still a human to me. Other than that, all of the MIDLESS MAGGOTS. JUST DIE IN A HOLE. IM DEAD IN YOUR EYES ALREADY...


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 19:58;

Sunday, March 29
Countup

2 Weeks + 2 days, How long must i wait....srsly, im tired of waiting and im so gonna grew greed soon


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 20:07;

Saturday, March 28
Haiiz

Its been 2 whole weeks...+1 day.... How long do you want me to keep waiting.
i am so going to die soon. you keep wanting me to get w910i and that like it SUCKS in my eyes. I want to have w595 and my mind is not gonna change. When are you going to help me change it?

Btw today do nothing, d/l movies,play mousehunt and slack all the way. I am so scared of mondays which is called monday bluesssssssssssssssssss


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 19:57;

Friday, March 27
Do i deserve this SHIT?

It's been TWO WHOLE WEEKS and i am still...HERE!! With this stupid Handphone. Glad only my schoolmates know my blog. But It's 2 weeks aniversary. 2 weeks later would be a month aniversary. How long am i going stay on this stupid phone. When someone calls me, i can't hear very properly. :( Anyway, i just have to be waiting and waiting. I really wish to have a w595. Next week big scheldue, seems to have a lot of toturous session. PE, bet Napfa training is coming....or Floorball. SSP,Remedial class, Extra class. I just can't feel happy at all!! This shit is killing me. Either got screwed at home or in school. Almost everyday, i will get screwed one time. I wanna change myself. Less Bossy, Less Greedy and Lesser of my bad character. I wish i can change to be a better person.

2 Weeks Aniversary of Expired Nokia 5070


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 15:02;

Wednesday, March 25
Bottomless Pit...

I really feel that i am a bottomless pit. I really do not know what to do. I feel that i have eating disorder. I can't control myself when it comes to food. I'm really breaking down. Just now requested 20 bucks from my father, got repirmanded. But, i do not want to tell anyone in my family.especially what i discover on my own. They are treating me like a bastard in the family. Then my father scolded me " you want change handphone, still wan so much money" then my sister scolded me also " Your handphone still in good condition change for wad?" I am so disspointed in this family. This family breeds what i am today. Greed,Boss,pity and many many bad points about me. It's time i do some budgeting and cut down on my food amount. :( i feel so sad now........


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 20:23;

Tuesday, March 24
Empty Promises ( Can say Confessment Post)

Of my whole life, I HATE PEOPLE WHO MAKE EMPTY PROMISES AKA PUT ME ON AEROPLANE. Seriously, the feeling is very heart-breaking. All i want is like any other kid. Have a computer to play, have a handphone to talk and have a family to discuss and consult. WHat i lack is a Handphone. It happened yesterday. My father ask me to clear my handphone, tommorow change handphone. I was HAHA, tmr change. When i'm sleeping, i'm even dreaming and aspire tmr to come more even faster. Okay, today, so went to compass point to wait for him. When i reach there, i wait and wait. Walk and walk. After what seems like eternity, he called me. I asked him where are you. He says AT HOME, WHERE ARE YOU, GO COMPASS POINT FOR WAD. NOT LIKE I CALL YOU GO THERE. I was WHAT?!?!?! You said you wanted to change handphone today. I was even aspire to change. He put me on aeroplane again. It's already been 11 days. He only briefly talk about my handphone. Why don't i get what i want and my brother gets all he wants. I feel like im a bastard in the family. I have different mothers with my brother and sister. I'm left out. From this family, i've grew to become a attention-seeker. Always finding people to know me, disturb people to gain attention from other people. 11 DAYS, still no news. Say want change, wan change, 11 DAYS...NO MOVEMENTS. My brother get a C902 and me, a stupid Nokia 5070. WHICH FUCKING SUCK LIKE HIM. From this family, i grew to become more bossy and xiao qi ( You may want to call it "WAN Bu QI") You want me to be fillal to you, can? DO YOU EVEN RESPECT ME? Since when i was 1 YEARS OLD. I never had a birthday present. While, i watch my friends around me, have PSP, Have WII. Have New Handphone. Yet what i have is CRAP

Handphone- $0 at purchase ( NO MONEY INVOLVED)
Laptop- Aunt's reward
PSP- Aunt's Christmas Present

What i have to my name is not enough. I am really unhappy to be in this family. This is not a family. On Birhtdays, i get money as present from my grandmother and my aunt. My father, NOTHING!! Especially this year. I grew 1 year older yet NO CAKE. NOTHING TO CELEBRATE THIS YEAR. At least, my sister is caring enough to buy me a cake to celebrate. My friends in primary school has Birthday parties but me....People think that i grew from a poor family, not enough money to eat in school. People may even that i dun exist as i never celebrate my birthday. People eagarly waiting for my invitition to my birthday party but i never have anything to give them. They think i am a freeloader, go their party but never invite them to my house to celebrate. From this, i grew to Stealing. Hey everyone, dun need to shoo me after reading this. But, it is the absolute truth. I am a Thief when i was small. I began stealing a case of colour pencil, never got caught because i was only primary 2 . Indeed, it was a exciting act. Your heart beats like mad when you are doing the act. Primary 5 i started stealing pokemon toys. Okay, my greed took over my mind, this time , i got caught. I hid inside my bag but when i was away to toilet, they checked my bag and found the toys. The teacher didn't report to the school authority due to i was first offender. She hopes for me to change. I changed my target. I started stealing MONEY. In order to feed my @-Cash habit, i steal my mother's money. One time again and again. I was punished severely, Kneel-ed in front of a wall, REFLECTION TIME. I gradually changed after that kneeling. I stopped stealing when i reach secondary school. I learnt that it was wrong to do that. But still, in my family, my hands is already dirty since primary 5. It can never be cleaned in their eyes. How i frame my brother everytime and when my mother's money disspears, I get punished first, reprimanded for something that i did not do at all. They already have amindset that i'm a thief.

Indeed, you all can shoo me if you feel uncomfortable to be with me. Thinking that i am still a thief but Last words : i realised my mistake already.

From this family, i have grown not to share anything, bossy and Thief MIND. I grew to become a "thief" because i want something so eagerly but it was always not approved.

I know you all think that what the hell am i writing so much about my past. Because what i am now is caused by THIS FAMILY.


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 20:36;

Monday, March 23
Need Help urgently

You know what? i discovered that the competition i supposed to be involved, we lost last position. I was like lol-ed. Seriously, its a disgrace to get last position when there is only 4 schools and 3 prizes. I was like, haha at yong shun. Seriously, its nothing to be proud off with mr pang putting up the banner outside the staff room when we got last position with this comment " OUT OF POINT" I like haha-ed at them. Anyway, today was a breeze. A-Maths, forced to write reflection. only 10 passed the test, i got 10/20. I was like "heng ah never fail" seriously, i super not happy with my marks. 10/20 is poor and needs BUCK UP. Physcis about third newton's law of motion. PE, FloorBall Test. Then played with wei teck and taufiq. In order to save the ball, i banged myself on the hall door then everyone's like laughing. I was "HUH? very funny meh?" but i didn't save the ball cos my floorball stick was like trapped in between the doors because i banged myself on the door. English did the Article Review about the Thumbtacks on the Aviva Ironman 70.3 race. After school, walked round the school while waiting for mr khai to come back. walk for liek 1 hour 30mins. Financial talk is seriously a waste of my precious time, i could have used that time to play mousehunt. Catch at least 10 mouses. What a waste of time



Tags Replied:
Darilyn: Haha, but out of a sudden everyone started to call me Y-I Xian....LOL,i wonder where they get this name


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 21:02;

Saturday, March 21
Dogs....( Contain Excessive Vulgarities,If Not Well,Please Do Not Read)

"HIM" still have the cheek to scold me fuck. He is such a noob coward. His the one who caused the root of problem yet he didn't realise it. He was the one who chased me away. The teacher reconise his work yet not mine? I really do not get it. He spent less than 3 days but without content yet i slogged my months to the teachers yet not being accepted. What FUCKING LOGIC I THIS? He was the one fucking bastard who caused this yet he still have the cheek to scold me fuck! Ta Ma De. I guess 8 Trigrams 64 Palms didn't work well. Guess i have to use Hachimon Tonkou and Asa Kujaku. It Looks Like This.

Hachimon Tonkou




Asa kujaku




Seriously, He is out of his fucking bastard mind. And also, "HIM" have a new owner. I can say he is a dog. I adress him is "HIM2" Him2 is a bastard, faggot. Maggots grew in his brains already. I really do not get it. Is HIM so worth to be protected by HIM2. Sin Hui should know who. Last year same class with us and the fatter than me a bit de person. He is such a loser. People help HIM improve, Yet HIM2 came and scolded me. What fucking rights does he have. He did not even do anything good for the competition. He is such a FUCKING LOSER. CHEE BYE.....


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 11:15;

Thursday, March 19

Sianz....i still cannot make my title text to move? Anyone can teach?

and also, i wan a box for tags replies? anyone has?



Tags Replied:
Darilyn: Thanks, you're the best friend i ever had. Only you would do this counselling jobs. Haha


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 22:09;

Plain Day

Today was a very no feeling day. Can say happy, can say sad. "HIM" went to find me when i reach school for I/C Making. Sin Hui, you should know who. The person beside me just now at the school gate is the him i'm talking about. He is still so arrogant, like act pity, ask me come back help them! i was like WHAT???? NANI?????? did i hear wrongly, he beg me to return!!! Waaaahhhhzzzz, still got the ****ing face to ask me come back after chasing me off. I insisted NO WAY, I'M COMING BACK. It's FINISHED, I QUIT!!!! At the first place, he chased me off. If i am in the naruto world, i will 8 Trigrams, 64 palms
It looks like this


haha i will pwn his ****ing ass. Anyway, i'm so not gonna come back no matter how he beg me. He chased me off now he wants me back. At least, i've found a new cave to stay now. WHO CARES TO LIVE IN THE SAME CAVE AS HIM????




Tags Replied:
Darilyn- I can't go on anymore, he chases me off, if i stay there, i really am wondering my existence at myself. Anyway, now he wants me back, i'm so not going to come back.

Yan Heng: Duh, if you all stop the mountains stuff


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 15:03;

Wednesday, March 18
Confused

I do not know what is going on already. Things were so well when he was introduced into the picture. I already lost to reality. I already lost the fight before i begin. Yesterday, i sent in my quitting sms. I really do not want to continue this competition, when we are fighting and killing each other. Overview of the story is simple. Last year december, when mrs tan ask me to join this competition. I was really happy. At least someone recongize my talent but not for long, if i had know this coming, i would never join this stupid competition, even the chances of winning is like 60% because only 4 schools participate. I wouls never imagine that scene where i raised the trophy high up with my team members. But of cause not with HIM. Febuary came, He was ****ing introduced into the picture. He snatched all my work, knowing this his skills is uber 10x powerful than me. But, if i had fought, this would not have happened. When we had a crossfire, the teacher almost announce whoose work is chosen, he whisper to me, "WO YING LE" . I was WHAT?!?!?!. I really can't stand this humilation anymore. This is an utterly disgraceful act. I would never wished that he will poke into this competition but he apparently started off with helping and when teacher knew he is intrested, he is introduced. Apparently, he snatched all my techical job, im fine. But the way he say wo ying le into my ears, i felt humilated, shamed in the public. I really can't imagine that he is still so happy in my face. I hate him. Now, even if i go, i have nothing to do, all thanks to HIM. Its like 2 Tigers living in the same mountain and CAVE. I left because i am willing to find another cave as my home. I really dun get it when my effort is unappreciated, my presence is also unappreciated. Why do i continue my effort on this stupid work, when it can pull my time down to the minumum. I will not have enough time to complete my holiday homework. I've been thinking whether to leave because i know HIM, will be a great threat. Thinking from last friday till now, making my decision to leave. I really do not get it, everything is so fine and why must he be introduced. What would you all do, if you are me? I really do not want to continue anymore. Feeling very down........


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 09:02;

Monday, March 16
TA MA DE!!!!!!

Im now blogging with a heavy yet hot heart. I am just ****ing angered by him. He is a mindless freak. I really do not know how to survive this committee. It is falling apart one by one. Just like a broken ship, parts and parts are being washed away into the big blue ocean and never to be found again. I really do not know what to do. That freaking guy just out of the thin air , scolded me "Shut Up,Fatso" In my whole life time, i hate being called "fat","Fat Boy" "Fatso","Girl","Mountain" all the freaking names called by various people. I really hate being name called. So after he scolded me, i replied. "What?" "I also never provoke you" then he start saying "Just go die la" "Better die in a hole" " or what"...."Fatso" Being ****ing provoked, i scolded him back saying all those vulgarities i know at him. then he started to curse me so i curse him back. He is jsut a mindless freak? i also havent talk to him today except on the phone. Yet he started saying all ur fault.your fault biggest. What is the ta ma de problem with me. I really do not understand why he started to scold. Is there a problem with me that i still do not know. Except being hot tempered,bossy or such. I really do not have the temper to hold these crap he scolded at me. Now he like coward block me. Think i his punching bag, when he want to scold, he just scold. He did not ****ing hired me to be sccolded at. I really wish for peace but since he wants a war, i can give it to him anytime.


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 20:32;

Sunday, March 15
Nothing to write

Today was the annual CIP we have. So dragged my super dead body out of my freaking mattress without anything but the floor. Soon, my back will be like a 80 years old ahma. Nvm this,Meet with darren for breakfast. Had carrot cake, Probably a can pass-ed carrot cake. Then, head to school for CIP. 10+am we reached bendemeer road. We were dispatched to start cleaning a flat. That old man so pitiful. His leg was like oh god...nightmares. But, his kitchen's stuff was so oily with a unknown substance. So oily, made my hands very dry. I survived anyway. Then lunch, wasn't that bad, managed to eat some nice stuffs. After everything, daily necessities distribution. While collecting our needed items. i was like being dee-siao by the hawker centre uncle. LOL, he very funy, but nvm, supposingly, we should have a adult to accompany us, but nobody help us. We managed to gave out to 8/10 houses. 1 not in, the other went overseas. Got 1 family, they say, give them the provisions,then they will pass it to them when they come back. But, 99% they will take and dun give them. So poor thing. we completed in less than 1 hours. Slacked at the hawker centre for 1 hour before assembling back. Was like called to say my reflecftion out. But the end, it was tired but meaningful being able to help them, was a good choice


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 20:11;

Friday, March 13
Sad

I feel so alone.....trapped in an alternate dimension. Yesterday's meeting wasn't so successful. Especially Larry and Eddie. They were so unconcentrative. When i say meeting ended, they just fly out. I really feel breaking down. Whatever we have done, was so useless. It's like nothing we can do. Then today, Changing handphone in less than 6 hours. WAHAHAHA But, it was so fucking dampen by certain group. We was to set up Haven, but i was the one carrying everything. I was so sad and unhappy, indeed nobody was helping me when that certain group was like watching soccer? WHAT THE ****!!!!! Then was told to bring extension. Ok i did it!! But when i go back then that guy asked me go help mdm zurina to set up laptop. But, That certain person asked me go help mdm zurina when he chose a easier location to set up,Library which is like less than 20 steps away from innospace. I FEEL SO SAD




Updated:[13/03/09 8.20pm]
Sian sia, just came back from my PTM. Mdm koh say me very talkative. Then 2 ****ing thing i very sad. I failed my english and combined humanities. My father was like screaming away at me.... sian sia, i feel heartbroken. I was accused....i didn't expect geography to get big map. My father just dun understand me. Then today suppose to change handphone, but my father say still can use dun need change. I really feel left out in this home. Everyone have a proper bed whereras me? i sleep on a matress of cos. BUT, on the floor. He say from last year until now, going to get a double decker bed for me and my bro. But, till now, nothing...not even a piece of shit. Then when my brother handphone contract end. straight away buy c902 for him. Then we fucking still using my stupid nokia phone. Damn sia......This stupid nokia phone was quoted from him"still very fashionable, still can use, a lot people use now leh." my bro gets pampered while me. not even a piece of shit pampered on me. I really dun understand why. Feeling being left out. *Cries*


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 15:17;

Tuesday, March 10
Delima

I dunno why, i feel much more hatred with that certain person. He is like slacking and not wanting to do his job. I seriously feel very stressed to work under him. I really feel very tired. Then Andy came today. I was like jumped from video to go back to PA. Man......i really dunno how to be decisive. I lack in making decision. I just need a break but not a kitkat. haha, anyway, today mdm tami was like so angry. haha, i duno why...must be angered by 4E3. So sian now a days. i am feeling the immense stress as a VP. Maybe blogging regularly to spill out my thoughts helps more


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 19:40;

Monday, March 9
Quiz

That's my result...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.



Shall not post anything today. Dun have the mood


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 16:40;

Sunday, March 8
In Need Of SuperGlue

Hmmmm....nothings seems to be changing. I really wish to change this club to a more fun and lively club. But every steps we take has more than 60% risk....either getting scolded the teachers or members dun like it....Feeling so stressed out...This week's plan is so gonna filled by the teachers instead of me. Monday need rushed finish the website. Tuesday CCA. Thursday Meeting. Left wed and friday. Haiiz Stress....


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 18:49;

Friday, March 6
Confused~??

I'm so confused now....I really dunnoe what to do? Anyway, super in a delima. Sometimes, i really need a shoulder to lean on. I feel so tired and stressed out. We want to make this club a Successful and a very big successful camp where we have fun. But they do not know when to play and when not to play. I've got like emo freaks, quiet freaks,hyper active freaks and moderate freaks. And i am like so WTF.... the whole thing is falling apart. I seriously have no help and no idea what to fix back the hole that is cracking. I really do not wish to think but i just can't help it. I really really wish to make it back to where it was. Anyway, today was quite a breeze. Geography, the usuals. with mdm tami talking about workbook questions. E-Maths, continue 3.4 about inequalities word problems and stack of homework also. I really want to learn from ke tat. The homework of infinite dooms. Haha, dun be scared if you see your sentence here. Then, A-Maths. 2.4 more graphs and even more graphs. Recesss usual stuff. eating the same old stuff on every friday. then SS, talk a lot about NHS then do practise. Haiiz, i seriously hate History. Then after school, have to report to mrs tan. Owe her a website for competition. Rushed it out, finished by 3++. Shocked to here only 4 schools participate in the competition. LOL, 3 schools win 1 school lose. I wish to win and i am determined to win. Haha. Then after the website, small group meeting on camp. Then slacked all the way. Then just not long ago before i made this post, i argued with my ****ing brother. Why can't he just understand me? He seriously have to understand me more. Saying " You have to listen to me to on the air-conditioner" i was like Na Bei, I listen to you, think i your dog. Then he reply i never say u r dog mah. Sometimes, you do not have the mindset that you are not scolding him. You have to think of your opposite side. How does he think if i said this words. Will it harm him? He just dun get it especially, surviving 15 years as his brothers, he still do not understand that i am super hypersensitive. Even people with me less than 2 years knows that point like hell. Although, they still literally poking me, insulting me. But, i have to learn to control my temper. Although, i do not control my emotion well, i am willing to learn and tolerate. My world is really like the world of infinite doom


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 18:23;

Tuesday, March 3
I'm Wrong

After seeking andy and asking for explanation, I knew i was wrong. From here, i wanna apologise to people who was directly hurt by my words and those who are indirectly affected. I really regretted my action upon this. I wanna gain respect and be respected. I want to break the ice within our Committee. I always remember Committee=Committed. This was said from andy for like ten over times. HAHA....Anyway, Chemistry wasn't so proud of. 29/50. Freak sia.......A-Maths 27/40... I won YH sia....HAHA....actually 24 but teacher never mark one of the question so after mark 27 haha...i was like so happy with a B3. Pwnz...anyway, changed blogskin and tagboard. wanna try shoutmix see good a not.. anyway, i hope to break the ice within the committee....till then chiong my HW Byesss...


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 19:58;

Monday, March 2
Right or wrong?

I really dun understand why is this happening? Am i doing the right thing by seeking andy for advice or should i continue my own style of working. I'm so in a delima.(Sorry for bad english).
I always wonder maybe its time for me to publish my blog. I've tried to minimize my vulgarities. But, one thing is for sure, i can't fully curb it, you know, in the 21st century, as young as pri 3. students noe how to say fuck but dunnoe the meaning. Haiiz, kids..... I wanna grow up and be matured. I wan to be less bossy and less annoying. I want to revive the dead club.

but what can i start off?

Any ideas? If happened to see this andy or shannon, pls do advise ty...


I've been pretty happy this few days

Physics 37/50 74%/100%
E-Maths 27/40 67%/100%
A-Maths ??/40 ??%/100%
Chemistry ??/40 ??%/100%
EL ??/40 ??%/100%


我觉得很累,我从来没那么累过! 我应不应该放齐,谁能给我开一条新路?, 18:30;

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