Tuesday, March 24
Empty Promises ( Can say Confessment Post)
Of my whole life, I HATE PEOPLE WHO MAKE EMPTY PROMISES AKA PUT ME ON AEROPLANE. Seriously, the feeling is very heart-breaking. All i want is like any other kid. Have a computer to play, have a handphone to talk and have a family to discuss and consult. WHat i lack is a Handphone. It happened yesterday. My father ask me to clear my handphone, tommorow change handphone. I was HAHA, tmr change. When i'm sleeping, i'm even dreaming and aspire tmr to come more even faster. Okay, today, so went to compass point to wait for him. When i reach there, i wait and wait. Walk and walk. After what seems like eternity, he called me. I asked him where are you. He says AT HOME, WHERE ARE YOU, GO COMPASS POINT FOR WAD. NOT LIKE I CALL YOU GO THERE. I was WHAT?!?!?! You said you wanted to change handphone today. I was even aspire to change. He put me on aeroplane again. It's already been 11 days. He only briefly talk about my handphone. Why don't i get what i want and my brother gets all he wants. I feel like im a bastard in the family. I have different mothers with my brother and sister. I'm left out. From this family, i've grew to become a attention-seeker. Always finding people to know me, disturb people to gain attention from other people. 11 DAYS, still no news. Say want change, wan change, 11 DAYS...
NO MOVEMENTS. My brother get a C902 and me, a stupid Nokia 5070. WHICH FUCKING SUCK LIKE HIM. From this family, i grew to become more bossy and xiao qi ( You may want to call it "WAN Bu QI") You want me to be fillal to you, can? DO YOU EVEN RESPECT ME? Since when i was 1 YEARS OLD. I never had a birthday present. While, i watch my friends around me, have PSP, Have WII. Have New Handphone. Yet what i have is
CRAPHandphone- $0 at purchase ( NO MONEY INVOLVED)
Laptop- Aunt's reward
PSP- Aunt's Christmas Present
What i have to my name is not enough. I am really unhappy to be in this family. This is not a family. On Birhtdays, i get money as present from my grandmother and my aunt. My father, NOTHING!! Especially this year. I grew 1 year older yet NO CAKE. NOTHING TO CELEBRATE THIS YEAR. At least, my sister is caring enough to buy me a cake to celebrate. My friends in primary school has Birthday parties but me....People think that i grew from a poor family, not enough money to eat in school. People may even that i dun exist as i never celebrate my birthday. People eagarly waiting for my invitition to my birthday party but i never have anything to give them. They think i am a freeloader, go their party but never invite them to my house to celebrate. From this, i grew to Stealing. Hey everyone, dun need to shoo me after reading this. But, it is the absolute truth. I am a Thief when i was small. I began stealing a case of colour pencil, never got caught because i was only primary 2 . Indeed, it was a exciting act. Your heart beats like mad when you are doing the act. Primary 5 i started stealing pokemon toys. Okay, my greed took over my mind, this time , i got caught. I hid inside my bag but when i was away to toilet, they checked my bag and found the toys. The teacher didn't report to the school authority due to i was first offender. She hopes for me to change. I changed my target. I started stealing MONEY. In order to feed my @-Cash habit, i steal my mother's money. One time again and again. I was punished severely, Kneel-ed in front of a wall, REFLECTION TIME. I gradually changed after that kneeling. I stopped stealing when i reach secondary school. I learnt that it was wrong to do that. But still, in my family, my hands is already dirty since primary 5. It can never be cleaned in their eyes. How i frame my brother everytime and when my mother's money disspears, I get punished first, reprimanded for something that i did not do at all. They already have amindset that i'm a thief.
Indeed, you all can shoo me if you feel uncomfortable to be with me. Thinking that i am still a thief but Last words : i realised my mistake already.
From this family, i have grown not to share anything, bossy and Thief MIND. I grew to become a "thief" because i want something so eagerly but it was always not approved.
I know you all think that what the hell am i writing so much about my past. Because what i am now is caused by THIS FAMILY.
我觉得很累，我从来没那么累过！ 我应不应该放齐，谁能给我开一条新路？, 20:36;